Sunshine & Blues

1. No one will manufacture a lock without a key;
   similarly God won't give problems without solutions
   
   If you miss an opportunity, don't fill your eyes with tears
   It will hide another better opportunity in front of you
   
   
   
2. Mistakes are painful when they happen;
   But years later collection of mistakes is called experience,
   which leads to SUCCESS
   
   BE BOLD WHEN YOU LOOSE
   BE CALM WHEN YOU WIN
   
   
3. Heated gold becomes ornament
   Beaten copper becomes wire
   Depleted stone becomes statue
   So, the more pain you get in life, you become more valuable
   
   No one can go back and change a bad beginning
   But anyone can start NOW and create a successful ending
   
   
   
4. Every successful person has a painful story
   Every painful story has a successful ending
   Accept the pain and get ready for success!
   
   Changing the face can change nothing
   Facing the change can change everything
   Don't complain about others;
   Change yourself if you want peace
   
   
   Lastly, and my fave:
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5. If a problem can be solved, then no need to worry about it
   If a problem can't be solved, what is the use of worrying?
   
   Sweet!
   

Lean on Me

My friends, I thank you that you are with me throughout this whole period while I'm down.

I thank you for your loving support, caring attention, overstretched patience and constant encouragement.

I am only able to make it thus far because of your never-ending faith in me.

I LOVE YOU! *BIG HUGS and MUACKZ

This song dedicated for you:

Sometimes in our lives..
We all have pain, we all have sorrow
But if we are wise..
We know that there's always tomorrow

Lean on me..
When you're not strong
And I'll be your friend, I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long, till I'm gonna need
Someone to lean on..

You can call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on..
I just might have a problem that you'll understand
We all need somebody to lean on..

Please swallow your pride..
If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
that you won't let show..

Lean on me..
When you're not strong
And I'll be your friend, I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long, till I'm gonna need
Someone to lean on..

If there is a load, you have to bear
that you can't carry..
I'm right up the road, I'll share you load
If you just call me..

Call me.. if you need a friend
Call me.. if you need a friend
If you ever need a friend.. Call me..
Call me..

Liberated

Couldn't bare to let these negative vibes dwell in me any longer. I felt as if I was in the verge of breaking down.. and I knew I was not stable!

I have graduated from friends counseling, self-healing to spiritual practice healing.. Now I'm moving on to professional help. I'm well aware that I need help. And it's something that I must seek. I must deal with it ONCE FOR ALL!

So I sought Nancy Ho from Silva Method, a specialist in hypno-therapy. Put it simply, it's a hypnosis session whereby she speaks to our sub-conscious mind to uncover things/feelings dwelling in us, which we may/not aware ourselves.

First session:
I was put in a relaxed state. The whole session was focused more on injecting peace and calmness into me. No talking, no counseling, just relax.. relax.. and relax..

After the session, I didn't feel anything strong in particular initially. But few moments after, I felt sense of peace in my heart and I became more calm and firm in my speech. Hard to explain, but overall I am at peace with myself.

Second session:
Again, I was put in a relaxed state, but now we did a lot of talking and uncovering of the pasts. Past incidents which I refused to uncover nor face.. mostly related to my family. It was a long hard painful session, with buckets of tears..

However, at the end of session, I felt real good and I had a big smile on my face.

I couldn't quite comprehend what was so indifferent about this session; but for the first time in 2 weeks, I saw myself in the mirror, and I love what I see. The first thing that came to my mind was 'WOW! You're gorgeous!', and I have this bright aura on my face! and yes, I'm not exaggerating.

I was full of curiosity with what Nancy did differently, because words that she said are words that I've heard countless times from others. In fact, those are words I said to myself too. So what did she do differently that created changes in me? I couldn't help but to ask her.

The difference lies in the sub-conscious mind. People speak through our conscious mind; and what she does is speaking to the sub-conscious mind and linking the sub-conscious mind with the conscious mind so that we can make the shift. Yes it's kinda complicated, but that's exactly why she's a professional. And she's the best of the best!

Well.. it's still work-in-progress.. My real issue is not knowing how to love myself. I crave for love from my external environment. It's something that I have to work on.
But I'm glad that I have walked past this state.

I am BACK! alive.. kicking.. with doubled power, energy and positive vibes!

Nothing is able to take me down now! :)

Lost

Depressed is the perfect word to describe my current state.

The challenge is to find the reason why. I couldn't rightly figure out why am I feeling depressed now... Everything in my life is going smooth and perfect, as some will say..

1) My health is back at its tip-top state.. I'm back in action like I've always been.
2) Career is on the right track.. a bit down on personal sales side, but things are coming..
3) Relationship is perfect! with my marriage on the way..
4) Family relationship is improving.. still work-in-progress.. but overall 'ok'

Looking at what I have, my surroundings, caring friends, friendly professional work environment, I am blessed! and I have no right to be depressed nor complain about who I am.. yet I am!

haiz..